sun / PACKERS 46 - THUG RAIDERS 16 (13-0 BABY) / recovery sunday

grading journals.  getting ready for the last week of school.  excited about that.  am/have been pretty tired, psychically tired.  tired, tired.  i always said i'd never be one of those people, those perpetually 'tired' people.  we'll see.  

went out last nite & determined not to go out again for a long time.  just too much mentally/emotionally.  thinking on throwin it in a bag again.  will weigh options.  we'll see.


i like these poems from fence.  

Under the Influence of Ideals
The extra fine ingredients sift down on you
or stir at your feet and cover your shoes
with the dust of it. The back of your hands,
dusted. Some fine glass particles stick.
The long bath only removes the thin layer
that can be removed. Everything else
is taken in and kept. You stand up
when you can to the curled lip,
some dogface raking back the curtain
to expose the starving. Who isn’t on edge?
Always the look that says don’t. And then,
the strategic repetition of the threat.
Death in the performance foreground,
some long-past allegory in back.
“Zero” plays on low while you look back
over your shoulder in a three-way mirror;
look up—there’s the glass chandelier
that substitutes for a people on the edge
of their seats. The natural birthright
position. Every last scene lasts for no more
than a second; some ceramic panther
stands in for the extinct. Is it today yet?
On stage, in a moment of everyday realism,
an accordion folds and unfolds while
we pretend we forget we said we ’d be kind.
-mary jo bang
 The Horse Declares
Conversation between me and my horse—the horse declares you enter into the world of time. How long have you known me? I thought. Reading lions of france for the lords of finance. Toast qua toast, whole taken for parts. The haystack—it figures. Me and my horse, we are delicately bound to one another by the resistant air. I came, I saw, I want to go home.
-norma cole