我的LO在过去7年里一直患有慢性白血病和小细胞淋巴瘤，现在已经演变成一种更激进的癌症，称为Richter’s Transformation，预后非常差。他已经进行了3次免疫治疗临床试验和2次化疗所有的治疗都结束了疗程，然后失败或开始影响其他器官。我瞧拒绝要约的第四个临床试验将把他在医院每周3 - 4天在接下来的5个周期(月)由于其他条件如瑞士法郎,肾脏第三阶段,AFib水肿和糖尿病,必须在这些药物监测。他选择了更注重年岁的质量而不是年岁的数量。我同意他的观点。然而，现在我发现自己很悲伤，想知道当他去世后我将会发生什么。我今天去买食物，发现我买的每样东西都是给我自己的，因为他对他以前喜欢的任何东西都没有胃口了。他吃得很少，偶尔还服用糖尿病补充剂。我意识到他很快就会过世，而且不在身边，这对我打击很大。到11月我就70岁了，但我是一个年轻的70岁，可能会被认为是50多岁的人。 I worried that I will not know how to navigate being single again. My child are in their 40s and 50s and have their own lives with their careers and children. I don’t want to be a drag on their lifestyle. I’m scared and worried that I will be at a lost on how to live again. This is a second marriage for both of us. We have had a fantastic marriage and will be married 26 years in October 7. We have been together for a total of 35 years. For clarification, I have never been by myself because In my first marriage I married young straight from my parents house at age 18 then divorced after 11 years of marriage and moved back into my parents home with my kids. Then I met and married my current husband (LO). So I have never lived alone and by myself. I’m a little scared. Any suggestions?